Brooklyn Botanic Garden

Sometimes i shouldn't be left alone, because i feel the need to eat things that i shouldn't - like plants in the conservatory.  

Astounding!

Sir just emailed and called me to share His good news with me! He won yet another award at work. He is such an amazingly hard worker - it's nice to see that other people recognize that. i am blessed to have such an amazingly strong and dedicated guy as my Master and provider. Lucky girl! Lucky girl!

BTW - i am enjoying my new dog bed AND the new placement for our evenings together. Both are definitely instilling a sense of peace. Now, if i could just get LiLu and Taybor to sit still and not track mud over me, the bed, the floor..... then i'd be really peaceful!

i finally tracked down some heavier weight camo print material for skirts. i hope it looks right, i had to order it off the 'net - so the colours could be 'off'.

i think i had my first peri-menopause flash last night. i woke up - cranky, sweaty and unable to fall back to sleep. Pshew! i could deal with the flash, but the moodiness! Zoinks! i didn't count on that.

Hopefully if our evening goes according to Sir's plan - i'll be so exhausted that i'll be able to sleep through even a monsoon of hot flash sweat! :-) wish upon a star!

April

MISTAKES
ANGER
CONFRONTATION
TEARS
DISCUSSION
CORRECTIONS
APOLOGIES
ACCEPTANCE
GROWTH
CHANGE

INTERMINGLED WITH
PUPPIES!
WORK
BLISS
JOY
BENTO BOXES
BEAUTIFUL WEATHER
POP CORN

That’s my life this past month. i thought that March was hard. April has been harder –but not worse. Just harder.
i've still not set up my altar since we had to take it down during the renovation. i feel as spiritual as a can of peas and i don't know what to do to change that. i feel rootless.

The same sliding feeling i get from the new floor is how i am feeling spiritually. Like there's shifting sand underfoot. Un-nerving.

Sir has changed where i usually sit at night to a position closer to Him (still on the floor!) and is buying me a new dog bed to sit on. i had to give mine up to LiLu during her recovery and she's chewed it up a bit.
Perhaps the new location and new dog bed will reinforce my position and foundation? i suppose that's a very crunchy granola way of thinking about it, but it just might work! ;-)

i've done something with Taybor since he was a tiny pup, it makes Sir laugh every time i do it. If Taybor is really going crazy or being whiney, i hold his head between my hands, look him in the eye and say "Patience. Patience in all things. That is how the pyramids were built. That is how we will rule the universe." Usually he woofs at me and runs away or licks my face. Some times he looks at me like i am wise and actually know what i am doing.
Maybe i need to hold my own head between my hands and chant "patience. patience." Everything will work itself out the way it will, because that's just what the universe does.

long time no post

It's been too long since i've posted here. i just wanted to leave you all with a poem that i have on my desk at work that helps get me through the rough days. Peace!

LOVE DOES THAT

All day long a little burro labors, sometimes

with heavy loads on her back and sometimes just with worries

about things that bother only

burros.

And worries, as we know, can be more exhausting

than physical labor.

Once in a while a kind monk comes

to her stable and brings

a pear, but more

than that,

he looks into the burro’s eyes and touches her ears

and for a few seconds the burro is free

and even seems to laugh,

because love does

that.

Love Frees.

~ Meister Eckhart

(Love Poems From God: Twelve Sacred Voices from the East and West by Daniel Ladinsky)